people piss me off. i quit

well i have decided that i have found my place in the world. while it is one i enjoy wouldn't want to give up it dose leave me some what discontent the things that i believe that are the reason to live are forever out of my reach.

i have been having a recurring dream. it is the first thing that has scared me to the point i have woken in sweats and to my amazement i'm balling. i haven't cried sense i was 7. now it's almost every night. as most of you know i repress this kind of stuff but when my friends start to notice that i have been off lately i figured i should put forth some explanation.

what's wrong with me?

to those i love and have hurt with my lumbering ways. i cause damage with ease and mostly without realizing it at the time.